haunted ; haunted ; haunted ; haunted ; haunted ; haunted ; haunted ;
everything is so hard now im starting to struggle..i hate the feeling..everyone is a pain in the ass..
she just quit softball and she's the only girlfriend who has been so nice to me..i felt invisible again..wen she is moody i dont know how to react..but i want us to be happy always..but i know, i wont be forever, i dont have a friend quality..i have such low self-esteem..i try not to care what people think when i go with my friends..for the first time i felt freedom and i am myself...
i got to know this guy..he got a low profile at first, it was abit awkward wen he message me the first time...but he was so good to me..for the a long time, ive been appreciated again..i hope he will be by my side when i need him...
i have no one now..i dont know how to be alone...
i hope by den ill be by his side too...
he is patient
he is clever
he is fun
he is lame
he is immatured
and the most important is...
he is right there
i felt really lonely nowadays...like my sis, whom i always talk to, is in italy and the other is always in school and come home quite late..or she will be with her boyfren,abg firzad..(my beloved brother..hahahaha)and now my elder sis is always in the room sometimes..and my mom is always nagging at me...it seems like ive done everything wrong...everything is so hard..i just wanna go out..verily hopeing any of my frens wld wanna ask me out..anyone..guy or girl...i juz wanna go out!!!!!!!!!
my nephew is very soon 4months...the previous two weeks he was having diarrhoea..and his cheeks deflate..now he is doing good and his cheeks are wrking..its infalting!!!haha...he look like a pear..haha..he got damn long lashes..i mean literally..its longer then mine..i feel like biting him..haha...
movies to watch...harry potter,goblet of fire+ just like heaven+ sky high+ zathurah(i dono y i wanna watch dis show..hehe)
haunted am i
ok..i got sumone in my mind for quite sometime but he dont notice...haha...i just wanna bare in mind that i have a crush on someone..haha..
anyone reading dis...mayb its u!
*wishes*::::pass all my exams(everyone wants that), to be an architecture......................*****